Anal Amy

Sorry, didn't mean to be such a tease. LOL. When I woke up this afternoon Jill came over. Nothing happened, we just watched movies but it's funny how she can come over and my parent's don't ever bother us. But when I have a guy over they're always checking in.

I was actually planning on going home Saturday night/Sunday morning after work but Jill had left me a message to call her whenever I got out of work. She wasn't awake when I called her but she woke up pretty quickly. She only had to ask me once to come over.

It's so different being with her compared to Adam. Not that I don't really enjoy the sex with Adam but with Jill we take our time. Enjoying every second from our first kiss on.

We we're planning on just sleeping together. I partially undressed then got into bed with her. She wrapped her arms around me and we closed our eyes. I was tired but couldn't sleep. We kissed softly at first, then it started getting hot. I couldn't let go of her lips. Our clothes came off pretty quickly but we just kissed for awhile. Enjoying each other.

I went down on her first. It's beginning to feel more natural. I mean it's still awkward but I think I'm getting better at it. With a little help from her "mini-vibe" (it's cool it's like the size of a battery I think I'm getting one) I made her orgasm.

I was ready to go to sleep then but she wouldn't let me. At first she just fingered me while we kissed. It was long before I was kind of fucking her fingers. They felt so good inside of me. She's so delicate with me but so deliberate. She went down on me too, and it felt amazing but I couldn't orgasm. It was kind of weird because it felt better than any of the other times she's gone down on me. She tried hard but after a while I knew I wasn't going to. And even though I didn't climax it was still amazing.

I'm just getting home so you know it was a good night. I slept over at Jill's. Actually we didn't do much sleeping. LOL. I have to take a nap but I'll be around later.

It's been a rough morning so far. There isn't enough coffee that can make being awake this early okay - however, all the nice comments (twenty to be exact) did make it a little easier.

I just got home from Adam's. I could've stayed there but he had to go to work this morning. After work last night we had some "ok" sex. Then this morning we both woke up very horny. It was supposed to be a quickie but it turned into some very hot sex. We thought he would last his usual five minutes then he'd get ready and go to work. Ten minutes later he's not even close to cumming. He's fucking me hard. He's fucking me quick. We fucked doggy style. I rode him on the top for a while. Then we did missionary so he could fuck me as hard as he could. We were at the 15 minute mark. I thought I was going to cum. I could feel my orgasm but we weren't able to get it. Finally after a little less than twenty minutes, he pulled me closer to him. He pushed deep into me and came very hard inside of me. It felt like he filled me with cum.

Not a bad morning. Which, I think makes up for a lack of sex this week. It's been kind of weird. Normally we have sex almost every day.

And other than that - not much is going on. Work has been work. Nothing exciting like last week. And I've hung out with Jill a lot this week, even going over to her pool today but nothing too exciting there either.

Hmmm....we'll see if it works tonight. It's good thing I haven't had much to write about this week or I'd be even more upset with Blogger. Besides working it's been pretty boring since Monday.




Wooohooo finally!

Hope you like. All the talk about boobs made me want to post mine. I think Nick (or maybe Jack (I was slightly drunk at the time) took these pictures earlier this summer at a party.

Blah. Blogger hates me for sure. Spent most of the morning (at least the part where I was awake) trying to post. Now it's time for me to go to work and all I had was time to write this.

I'll be around later. Tried again to upload the pic. Didn't work so I'll try again when I have more time. Sorry.

And of course you can email me - the best way to do it is through myspace, but you can also send emails to Amy At Anal-Amy Dot Com.

Well, I was going to post a pic(s) but it seems blogger doesn't like me right now and won't upload my photo. I'll try again later today but I have to get ready for my workout now.

So, I think I'm caught up on my emails, my lovely comments and what not but if I missed anything let me know.

When I woke up it was raining. I was pretty disappointed because Jill and I had made plans to hang out by her pool today. But literally as I was answering a couple of emails and responding all the comments the sun came out!

So, after I work out with Veronica I'm going over to Jill's. That seems a little weird but with Veronica things are good. We act normal together, but at the same time there's a little spark between us. And with Jill, we ended up talking on the phone for a while last night. That cut into my beauty sleep a little but it's not a bad thing. We did a lot of talking about us again. I wouldn't say we defined things but we have a better idea of what we both want. We're going to try to be friends with benefits. I'm not sure how it's going to work but we're both pretty happy.

Wow - I come home and see 11 great comments and bunch of emails - I feel loved. But at the same time tired and guilty for not writing back/updating my blog. I had another rather interesting night - just me and Adam but I can't wait to share the details. I have off from both jobs so I'm planning on writing, writing back and responding to a whole bunch of comments from the last few days and then some. Anyways, time to catch up on some sleep now.

At some point I was planning to write everything about last weekend - but it seems like I might not have that kind of time before I start forgetting details so I thought I should at least give a summary - since this a sex blog after all.

As you already know it started Saturday night/Sunday morning when they let me out of work early but instead of leaving, I stayed around and did some drinking. I'd like to think that I can handle my liquor but I don't really drink hard stuff. Well, some of the girls had bought me a bottle of Jack Daniels. Rum I can do, Vodka I can sort of do but Whiskey was way too much. I was pretty drunk by the time the club closed. I was way too drunk to drive home but that was okay because I went to a sorta after party at Veronica's house. And yes, I said house. She's only a couple of years older than me but owns her own house.

We bascially just hung around drinking some more. At some point, everyone else went home, or passed out on the couch. I was planning on sleeping in the guest room but it was already occupied. So instead, Veronica invited me into her bed. Believe it or not I think it was pretty innocent. And for like a minute we were on opposite sides of the bed trying to go to sleep. A minute later we were all over each other. We didn't doing anything besides kiss and hold each other but it kept us awake until well after the sun was rising.

Like, I said it was an interesting night. And the cool part is, that things haven't become weird between us. We're still friends, in fact I think we've talked more on the phone since that night then we did before. And I think it's just sex (even though we haven't done anything without our clothes on) and I think that makes it a lot easier. I'm looking forward to seeing her again but so far we've only made plans to work out together.

Sunday, Adam and I went out to a really nice restaurant. The food was great, the mood romantic, he looks really hot when he dressed up and wine got me really horny. It looked like we were going to have another romantic encounter in the parking lot. We were making out against his car, I even felt his erection against me. And I wanted to but my phone kept ringing - we were wait to my only little party at one of the local bars. If it wasn't my party I wouldn't have cared but since it was we painfully skipped the sex.

The party was a lot of fun. A lot of my friends were there, more than I thought would be there. Even things were good with Jill for the most part it seemed like things were back to normal between us. The only thing that sucked is that shots do not mix well with wine so I didn't drink much. Which, in the end turned out to be a good thing.

When the bar was closing, I was planning to go over to Adam's. Jill asked if she could come along. I was thinking she needed a ride home but she ended up coming over to his apartment too. I thought things were going to be weird and awkward but I don't think it could've gone any better.

We sat on his couch, drinking a little, watching a little tv and letting the two of them get to know each other. I was already way too excited because I knew what was going to happen.

Adam made the first move. He was sitting behind me and wrapped his arms around me and started to kiss my neck. Then Jill leaned forward and kissed me. I took turns kissing them. They took turns caressing my breasts. Jill's hand went up my skirt. Her fingers pushed my thong out of the way and started to finger me.

We moved to Adam's bed. Together they took my clothes off. It was amazing how they almost naturally worked together.

I laid on the bed with them on either side of me. Kissing my body. Feeling my body. Teasing me.

Their clothes started to come off.

Jill went from fingered me to going down on me. It felt so good. Adam watched, just kind of slowly rubbing his cock. I knew he wanted more, and so did Jill. I was more than surprised when she invited him to fuck her from behind. And at first it was a little weird to me. My boyfriend, my best friend. I think Adam was in heaven. It was as much a birthday present for me as it was a present for him. He came before me. But even as he was cumming she didn't stop licking me, fingering me until I orgasmed. I literally had a hard time speaking after my orgasm.

We switched positions and I went down on Jill. She tasted like Adam and that really turned me on. I think I did a lot better job of oral on her this time. She seemed to enjoy it more and she definitely moaned a lot more. I brought her to an orgasm but we didn't stop there. I worked my way up to her lips and we kissed, making out for a while until Adam wanted to join in again.

Adam fucked me missionary style while Jill watched fingering herself with one hand and holding my hand with the other. He pounded me for while. Fucking me hard. Shaking the bed. Then we got into a doggy style so he could fuck my ass. A minute later he came.

Adam was done but Jill and I weren't. He left us alone and we just made out for a while. It was the calm after the storm. We held each other and talked.

It was an amazing weekend. My best birthday ever. But I kind of wish that I hadn't made out with Veronica now. At the time I thought things were over with Jill but now it feels like me making out with Veronica is a dirty little secret. But even after my night with Jill and Adam I want to see Veronica again. Something must be wrong with me. I'm so horny.

Well, I'm still alive - barely. Yesterday was the hangover off all hangover - today I'm just tired. Physically exhausted but I had to get up. I have to go to work. If it wasn't for the money I'd call off today so I could sleep all day. But I think it was worth it.

Last night, I went home with Jill and Adam so it was amazing to say the least. I've got a lot to write about so I hope after work and after a nap I'll have the energy to post about it all.

I'm feeling a little more human now - at least human enough so that I'll be able to eat in a couple of hours when we go out for dinner.

And sorry, that I haven't posted about last night/this morning's fun but I'm really not feeling good enough to write today. But I promise I'll write about it soon. And hopefully I have more adventures tonight to post about.

Jill called me while I was sleeping. She wanted to know what I was doing tonight so who knows what might happen.

So far it's been kind of interesting. It started when my boss let me leave around 12:30 last night because we were pretty slow - but I stayed around anyways. Did a little drinking. Went to Veronica's house with her and a few of the other girls to keep drinking when our club closed. It was intersting to say the least and I didn't get to sleep until around eight this morning. I don't know what I'm doing awake right now. I'm super hungover but I hope I'm feeling at least a little normal by dinner time when I go out with Adam. I've got some stories to tell - just not when my brain is hurting like it is right now. Thanks everyone for the birthday wishes and what not.

Last weekend, I felt a little out of place. Some of the dancers made me feel like the new girl - ignoring me and doing other high school things like that. But last night was a lot of fun. We were slow at first so I had time to talk to a few of the girls and even some of the ones that were bitches last week turned out to be pretty cool.

It was also the first time I got to work with Veronica. The men love her - not just because of her body - she actually puts on a show doing some crazy tricks on the pole. And the guys seem to really love her lap dances.

And I came very close to performing a lap dance. One of the customers was willing to pay me a very nice amount of money for a dance even if I kept my clothes on. Of course it would've been a lot more if my clothes had come off. Even the head of security said I could've but I didn't. The idea of doing it really turned me on but I didn't really feel comfortable doing it.

Instead, I got twenty bucks for letting one of the other dancers give me a lap dance. I didn't know "Angel" before but we got to know each other pretty quickly. At first it was just fun - it was like how I'd fool around with my girl friends at parties. We pretended kissed. She felt me up and things like that. Then she got on her knees in front of me and pretended to give me an imaginary blowjob. The guy loved it. He was sitting next to us watching.

Then she started taking off her outfit while she started to grind herself against me. I was turned on when she pressed her chest against me. I smelled her hair, felt her warmth. She started to move like she was riding an imaginary cock. Then she turned around took off her skirt and pretended to let me fuck her from behind. And thanks to anonymous who mentioned the strap on yesterday - I was thinking about that last night. When the song was done I don't know who enjoyed it more - me or the customer. The customer slipped me his number while Angel kissed me on the forehead.

But I didn't have much time to enjoy it or think about it because it got pretty busy after that.

Veronica said something about it - saying I had lost my innocence. It's kind of funny how she and all the girls I talk to think I'm so innocent and naive. It's like if they only knew.

When I got out I went to Adam's. I was too worked up/too awake to go home. Adan had drunk dialed me while I was still working but he was asleep when I got there. However, he woke up pretty quickly. I was naked before we even got to his bed. He went down on me which was something different. Not really a good different but different. I mean it felt good, but he was a little too drunk to do a good job at it and he got pretty bored with it quickly.

We fucked missionary style. Nothing special, a little sloppy but he lasted for a while (the alcohol). And I'll admit there were times I imagined he was Angel wearing a strap on and fucking me. And there other times I imagined it was Jill fucking me.

Just wanted to share that I just had some amazing sex. I went over to Adam's just to pick up something I left yesterday but we ended up having a quickie. Just long enough for some satisfying regular sex than anal sex before he came. I was having kind of a bad day but this and the Fleshbot thing have made today a pretty good day. Definitely what I needed.

Normally, I'd write about all the details but I have to leave in a few minutes to go to work.

I'm listed on the Sex Blog Roundup at Flesh Bot! It's pretty cool how when you're having a bad day something very nice like that happens. I never thought I'd be listed on Fleshbot - I visit that site pretty often, check out the blogs listed there but never thought mine was any good.

Thanks!

I didn't go over to Jill's - not really a shock but I'm kind of disapointed.

When I went I went to the gym this morning it was mostly sunny. When I came out it was cloudy. I blame Scott...he was there and kept staring at my and Veronica.

When I called Jill, she told me she had made other plans. She didn't even want to go shopping. Her and her ex were going to hang out.

I now know why guys complain about girls so much.

Things have become very awkward between us. At first I thought she was trying to avoid me - but now I can tell it's a mutual awkwardness. I don't know what to say to her.

I don't want to jinx it but I think I'm going over to Jill's this afternoon. It's a little cool right now so we might go shopping instead of tanning. I'd rather just go to her bedroom but I don't think that's going to happen. Even though I'm very horny right now I'd be happy just being friends again.

After work today I went over to Adam's apartment. We were planning on going out for dinner - we never made it that far.

When I got there, Adam was just about to take a quick shower. I was going to wait on the couch for him, but after about a minute of watching television, I was bored and there were other things I wanted to do.

I surprised him by joining him in the shower. At first, we actually tried to shower. I was washing him, paying special attention to a certain part. It was hot and steamy and would've been romantic if we weren't giggling all the time. He washed me body - paying special attention to my chest, then between my legs. Eventually we forgot about the soap - he was fingering me. If it wasn't for the water in my face, and it being cold when I wasn't under the water it would've been perfect.

We tried to have sex, first standing up. But it was an awkward position. We tried with me bent over and him behind me but that didn't work well either. Finally, we got out of the shower - we got just a little dry before he stole me towel - then had me bend over his sink. This position worked.

Slowly, he fucked me from behind. It was amazing, looking at him through the mirror. Watching his facial expressions as he thrust into me. And as he got closer we locked eyes. And as he came inside me I smiled.

We ended up not going out to eat, we said were too lazy to get completely redressed. I sat around in my panties and one of his t-shirts as he cooked in just his boxers and a "wife beater." I don't know why, but just hanging out dressed like that felt special.

He just threw together some meal out of a box that wasn't half bad. We ate it on his couch, as we cuddled watching television. But as soon as the food was gone - we got back to business - trying to make up for the lack of sex the past few days. He climbed on top of me, kissing me then fingering me. The clothes came off again, throwing them on the floor.

He pushed my legs apart and I could feel his cock against my stomach as we made out. I asked him to fuck me again, but he made me beg for his cock. It turned me on.

He pushed into me and I was already moaning. We took our time. Enjoying every thrust. We kissed, not letting go of each others lips as we fucked. He felt amazing inside of me.

We had sex for a long time. I'm not sure how long, but the program that was on when we started was over and the next show was halfway over. By now he was pounding me into the couch. I had my legs wrapped around his back, bring him deeper into me. I was moaning pretty loud. Both of us were breathing hard. Sweating. But he wasn't close to cumming.

That's when I took control. I pushed him on to his back. Then put my lips on his cock. It didn't take long for me to make him. He had a huge orgasm, filling my mouth with his cum. I even felt some of it drip out of my mouth before I was able to swallow.

I kind of thought we were done. I laid on top of him, my head resting on his chest as we watched part of some movie. For a while, we were just lying there. But of course I couldn't keep my hands to myself. At first I just ran my fingers across his chest and stomach, but they made it down the area around his cock. I found him half erect. For a while I massaged his cock with my hand until he was hard. That's when I climbed on top of him. Most of the time one of us has to guide the cock into me but this time, I was just able to sit down on him and feel him sliding up into me.

We fucked for a few minutes like that but being on the couch we didn't have enough room. Then we moved so that he was sitting up normal on the couch, we me straddling him. Once he was in me again, we didn't move except to kiss. I wanted to keep him inside of me forever. Finally, I started to ride up and down on him. He pulled me closer to him. My nipples dragged across his chest as I moved up and down. It felt so good.

I never fucked him fast, I just kept a slow pace but it was all that he needed. After a few minutes, he grabbed my hips, pulling me down on to him. He came one more time.

I didn't climb off of him right away. I just stayed in his arms for a while. I could've stayed like that all night but he has to work in the morning. Plus, Friday night I'm working the night shift at the club so I'd rather be home early so they don't complain that I stay out late every night. However, they haven't said anything yet about the nights that I have worked and got home real late. Yet.

I just got home from Adam's - I wish I had a great story to write but I don't. We watched a movie which is usually code for "we had sex while there was a movie on in the background" but there was none of that tonight. It's kind of odd. I mean we kissed and fooled around a little bit but that was it. I don't know - maybe it's just the calm before the storm.

Just in case anyone was curious, I didn't go over to Jill's. The weather didn't cooperate. By the time I was done with my work out the weather had gone from sunny to mostly cloudy. We still could've tanned some but Jill had some other things she wanted to do. Blah.

I spent most of the day on the couch just watching the television.

Might go over to Adam's tonight, might not. That's kind of the way my day is going.

Not much going on here today. Finally a day where I might be able to finally and completely catch up on my sleep and beauty rest. And it's kind of sad but between the long hours at my two jobs and the uncomfortable shoes my legs and feet need some serious rest. I feel so old.

The only thing I'm doing for sure is going to the gym to work out with Veronica. Which isn't going to help out my legs but I've been getting pretty bad, I haven't worked out since last week.

Then this afternoon I might (a big maybe) go over to Jill's and hang out by the pool. The heat is back so it would be nice to spend the hottest part of the day in the pool but the real reason is that I really want to spend time with her. Even if it's just spending time together but things are getting a little awkward. I don't want to say it but I already know sex has a habit of ruining friendships.

If I have time I'm also going to work on that other blog I mentioned. It seemed like a really great idea at the time, I mean I love writing about everything anal sex related but it doesn't seem like there's enough hours in the day.

That prom night started out pretty interesting. During the prom me and my date, Vinny found unused banquet room and had sex on one of the tables. He just pushed my dress up, took my panties off then we fucked. I think he lasted all of a minute. Then I put my panties back on, fixed my dress and we went back to the prom.

When we got back one of his friends that I was kind of friends with asked if he could dance with me. The dance got pretty hot and heavy, Tom was grinding against me so much that he got a few dirty looks from one of the teachers. Of course that didn't stop us. At one point, he whispered into my ear "Amy I want you so bad." I said something like maybe later tonight.

When I got back to Vinny he interrogated me about it. At first I thought he was mad but then he started to ask me questions like "do you want to have sex with Tom?" And I said things like "maybe." Not giving too many definite answers.

But I kind of forgot about it. I didn't see him much after that at the prom and after the prom he went to a different after party. I went with Vinny to some after party which was basically just a place to drink some and change before we went out.

We went to this under 21 club that didn't serve alcohol. I don't need alcohol to have fun but this place was boring without alcohol. Luckily, we were able to sneak some liquor in but not nearly enough for all of our group.

I remember I was dancing with Vinny and my mini skirt kept rising up so that the straps of my garter belt kept becoming visible. I kept pulling my skirt down for a while but then I gave up.

Vinny noticed but so did a few other guys. Watching them try to get peeks or even staring at my legs really turned me on.

When the club closed a small group of us went to a hotel for one final party. We did some more drinking but I was still pretty sober when Tom showed up without his prom date.

It wasn't long after that the three of us were going back to a room Vinny had rented. At first it seemed like nothing was going to happen, we were just sitting on the bed watching tv. I was waiting for one of them to make the first move. I was really too nervous to do it.

Then Tom asked if we were going to do this or not. It was kind of funny and broke the silence.

I said something like "I want both of you to take turns fucking me." Except whatever I said sounded a lot more naughty and sexy.

My clothes came off except my gaterbelt and stockings. Vinny wanted me to keep them on. There wasn't any foreplay. I don't even think I was felt up until after we were already having sex and that's always something guys will do as soon as my bra comes off.

I just got into the doggy style position and really didn't do much after that.

We had done anal a few times already and I knew what he wanted. He pushed his cock against my ass. He had problem getting in me. We weren't using any kind of lube so it took a little effort from both of us to get him into me. And at first it hurt, but the kind of pain that made me moan a little.

He lasted a lot longer this time. It still wasn't great sex, but I think we both enjoyed it.

It wasn't great sex, I was still what I would call a "boring fuck" back then. I just laid there while he fucked me. But he wasn't that great either. But at least he lasted longer than a minute.

I felt like such a slut - having two guys alone with me in the room.

Tom replaced him and put his cock into my ass. It was pretty easy having him enter me. He told me I was his first for anal sex.

It felt so weird having two different cocks into me one after another. They felt different, they fucked me different. Tom was pretty gentle until he started getting close. Then for a minute he fucked me hard until he came.

If it hadn't been like five in the morning I think we would've kept going.

I saw Jill again tonight - we just drove around for a while. Parking in one of my favorite secluded parks but instead of anything happening we ended up just talking.

At first we were our normal selves - joking around and what not but then the conversation turned semi-serious. She brought up what I was thinking. She did most of the talking. Telling me that the other night was "amazing" but we should stay friends. She wants to see if a relationship can work with her ex-boyfriend.

I kind of feel like I was dumped. But she was saying some of the things I was thinking. Adam isn't Mr. Right but I'm having a great summer with him, and we only have month left before I go back to school. Plus, I don't know if I'm ready for a real relationship with another female.

But at the same time, the other night was amazing. I can't stop thinking about her. I want to taste her again. I'd be happy if it was just sex and I hinted at that but she avoided that. But I'm not ready to give up. I can't. Whatever we had the other night was too special to give up on.

And I just wanted to thank everyone for there comments. Today's been a little weird, exhausting, stressful and there were some really great comments to come home to.

It's been a weird few days - there's nothing in particular it just seems like everything is off balance. I think it's the heat. It's been hovering around one hundred the past few days and I think it's getting to everyone. Just walking to my car after work tonight, I thought I was going to melt. It's just a hot breeze with high humidity even at night.

And I wasn't supposed to work today - it was supposed to be my day off but Adam called me in because someone was out sick. I was supposed to go over to Jill's and hang out in the pool this afternoon but he basically begged me to work.

I could tell Jill didn't really like my decision but she wasn't mad at me.

After work, I went over to Adam's - normally as soon we're alone we're all over each other but tonight we just sat on his couch watching tv. Even though the A/C was on neither of us wanted to do anything besides stare at the tv. That's just odd.

When I left Adam's tonight, I called Jill. It seems like everything is alright, everything's normal but at the same time it feels like something isn't right. I don't know.

I think I just need some time to relax.

I'm not exactly sure where to begin. I guess I can start with Friday afternoon when I was still at work. I started to get really nervous - I mean like almost sick to my stomach nervous. I thought about calling it off. But, I'm really glad I didn't.

I was still feeling a little sick when we pulled into the valet parking at the hotel. But then I noticed something a little weird. In the lobby we noticed a group of really cute but really gay guys. Then we noticed a very butch lesbian couple. Then a gay couple walking out of the hotel. That's when Jill whispered to me - "That's right the gay games start this weekend." Suddenly, I went from really nervous about someone noticing us - realizing we were just kind of pretending compared to the 15,000 (that's the number I heard on the news) gay and lesbians were going to be in the city for the event.

Our room actually had a beautiful view of Lake Michigan. And even though we weren't facing the sun, we could see the effects of the setting sun. It's kind of cliche but everything looked so small.

Jill came up behind me and hugged me. It's kind of weird because instead of feeling a hard cock against my ass, I felt her breasts pushed against my back. She pushed my hair away from my ear than said, "I can't believe we're doing this." Neither could I.

She just held me for a while. We stood there in silence just watching the world until she joked "I wonder if anyone is watching us?" She jokingly grouped me, kind of like how we would do in the past at parties and what not.

At this point, I was feeling normal but I wasn't sure if I was ready to go all the way. I think she was feeling the same way, but she had an answer. Out of her bag she pulled out a bottle of wine. We didn't have glasses so we used plastic cups.

And I know I said, I didn't want to get drunk and we didn't. But we definitely were both buzzing a little. I remember we were making fun of some reality show on MTV, we couldn't stop laughing. It was just like a sleep over until she leaned over to me, tilted my head towards her and she kissed me. Then everything went silent. We kissed for a few minutes. My head was spinning in a good way.

When she pulled away - she asked me "When did you realize there was something more?"

"Early this summer." I told her. "You?"

"Sometime, freshman year I realized I was attracted to you in a different way." She was rubbing my back in a very sexual manner.

I was mad at her for never telling me, but she told me I was always with guys and she was worried how I would react.

I made some sort of joke about "how I was always with guys."

Then she asked me how many guys I had been with.

I told her I had lost count and would need a pen and paper to try to figure it out. She just laughed and called me a "whore."

She told me she has been with eleven guys. Which, was six more than I knew about. She told me about four of them, then surprised me. The other two were a one night stand, a threesome. I told her I was mad at her for not telling me. Then demanded every details.

Last summer, graduation night at an after party she "found" herself alone in a bedroom with her boyfriend and his best friend. Picturing her doggy style with two guys really turned me on.

We finished the bottle of wine, it wasn't very big of a bottle and it took us over an hour to drink it. I was just a little buzzed.

But then things got serious again. She looked into my eyes and asked me "Are you sure?"

I didn't even think about saying no.

We kissed again. And we just laid next to each other on the bed kissing for a while. I mean like a really long time, so long that I actually had to take a bathroom break.

When I returned, she went. But instead of laying back in the bed with me. She stood in front of me. I kind of realized right then how beautiful she is. (I know some people asked me to describe her but I'm not sure if I can do justice but I'm going to try.) She has long brown hair with blonde high lights that goes just past her shoulders. Her hair was partially covering her eyes, blue eyes. Her nose is a little big, just a little but I think it's cute. Most guys say she's cute before they say she's hot. But wow, I think she's hot. And she has a beautiful smile that she flashed, but we were both nervous again.

She started with her tank top, taking it off then throwing it on to the floor. She was wearing a pink bra with lace, that she unhooked and just let fall to the ground. I've seen her breasts before but this felt different. She has small brown nipples that were poking out. She's a 34B and very perky.

Her jeans came off next, pushing them the ground. She has a matching pink lace thong. There was a moisture stain between her legs. She took off her panties, revealing her neatly trimmed pubic hair. She had just a landing strip of black hair.

And she had tan lines, very visible but very sexy. I kind of felt priviledged to see the pale spots.

She stood there for a moment, almost like she was letting me admire her. She skinny but not too skinny. It's not fair because all she does is swim and run a little.

Then I started to take off my shirt, but she stopped me. She wanted to take off my clothes. She climbed on to the bed, then on top of me. She felt so warm. She took of my shirt, above my head, but before she took it off of my arms she kissed me. Then she threw it on to the floor somewhere.

She caressed my breasts through my bra. But she was more gentle then any guy had ever been with them. With a lot of my help, she took off my bra. She teased my nipples with her tongue, the delicately sucked on each one until my nipples were hard.

She took off my jean skirt. My black mesh panties were literally glistening from moisture between my legs. She took them off too and smelled them.

I think if I had been with a guy we would've done it right then but instead we returned to kissing. Caressing. Feeling. Licking all over. My neck, her shoulders. I sucked on her nipples. She gave me a hickie right on my cleavage. We were kind of in a silly mood, but still very romantic.

I felt her starting to run her fingers across my stomach, when she got closer I moaned soft with anticipation. She ran one finger between my pussy's lips. Then slowly slid two fingers into me. Slowly her fingers explored me while we kissed.

Then her mouth followed her fingers down to between my legs. At first it was just kissing. Then licking and fingering me. It felt different. Her lips were soft. Her touch so feminie. And her hair kept getting in the way, tickling my skin until she put it up.

It was her first time, but she did better than most guys ever did. Within a few minutes I couldn't stop moaning. I was breathing heavy. A few more minutes later I came. The easiest orgasm I ever had. And maybe the best orgasm ever. It left me unable to move. Unable to speak for a few moments.

When I recovered, we switched positions so that she was laying on her back. I put my hair up then went down on her. Licking her lips, teasing her clit and fingering her.


I can't really describe her taste. It wasn't what I expected. I expected sweet and a strong taste but I could barely taste her. I've heard it described as "musky" but I'm not sure if that really describes Jill.

I kind of thought that it would just come naturally but it didn't. I tried different things but it didn't seem like she was getting much from it. I think I went down on her for a half hour. Maybe it wasn't a half hour but it seemed like a long time. I was starting to get frustrated with myself. Then she joined in, she started to rub her own clit.

She started to moan. My fingers, my tongue and her fingers started to move together in a rhythm. Then she started to moan louder. Her moans are so soft and almost sound like she's squeaking. She started to call out my name and I went as fast as I could. I was feeling a little dehydrated but I didn't stop.

She actually grabbed the back of my head and pulled me closer to her. My mouth almost into to her. Then she came. It wasn't like she exploded, but I felt her become more wet and she was already very wet to begin with. Then she kind of giggled but a cute giggle.

I said "Wow, that was amazing." Kind of cheesy, kind of cliche but I couldn't think of anything else.

After a few minutes, we got up we both got ready for bed, doing the nightly rituals of cleaning our faces and things like that. I looked in the mirror. Both of our faces were red. I mean like really red. And we kissed a few more times.

We got back into bed, this time under the covers that had been kicked all over the bed. We laid in each others arms and kissed. I think I could've gone more, but she fell asleep. Leaving me to think a little and of course not able to fall asleep for a while.

The next morning, I woke up with no covers. She had stolen them all and I was freezing because the A/C was still going on high. I stole some back, half to warm up half to wake her up. When she looked at me, at first it looked like she was mad, then she smiled. She motioned me closer with her finger than kissed me.

We had breakfast from room service, then watched television again for a while. Just hanging out in her bath robes.

She said something like we have to do that again sometime. Of course I suggested right there.

We climbed back into bed, kissed again, but it wasn't long before she asked "69?"

I got on top and both of us started licking and fingering each other. It was kind of an awkward angle for me and she said it hurt her neck a little but it didn't stop us. I came first again, she was licking me, my lips then clit. Then I felt her hands on my ass. Spreading them apart, playing with them. Caressing them. I had a hard time concentrating on my job. I felt a finger against my ass, then she pushed just one finger into me. I was unable to concentrate at all anymore. Two fingers in my ass. She's fingering my ass, licking my clit. I climaxed - it wasn't just an orgasm.

I forgot about her for a few minutes as I orgasmed. Yes, I said a few minutes or at least it felt like a few minutes. She kept licking me even as I came.

That's when I realized my neck was really hurting me. I switched positions so that it was just like the night before. Me going down on her while she laid on her back.

I wish I could say that she came again, but she didn't. And she made me feel guilty about it but in a playful way. It was starting to get close to noon and we had to check out soon so I was forced to give up.

When we checked out we went shopping together, it kind of made me feel like we're still going to be able to be friends. Even though there were a couple times when we looked at each other and it was almost like we were staring at each other. I don't know how to really describe it, but it was a different look then we'd ever given each other before.

Then when we got back to the burbs, we took a quick swim in her pool. Seeing her all wet made me want to do naughty things to her but of course her dad was there.

So, I don't know where our relationship is going. I don't even know if it's really a relationship. I don't know if I'm ready for a relationship with another female, but at the same time if I'm ever going to have a relationship with a female I'd want it to be with Jill. But at the same time I'd love this to be just a relationship for fun. Last night, was one of the most amazing nights of my life. I felt things, pleasure that I never felt before. It kind of scares me a little, but in a good way.

I'm letting the suspense build. Either that or I've been a little too busy with work and trying to catch up on some lost sleep. Anyways, I'm going to take a nap but I'll be doing some writing tonight.

I'm still alive - have a lot and I mean a lot to write about just haven't had the time yet. I have to get ready for work now but I'll be around sometime to write about last night, this morning and this afternoon ;-)

Kind of like the calm before the storm this morning. Normally, I look forward to going to the club. Besides the money, it's a fun place to work. But today I have only one thing on my mind. I can't wait to see Jill tonight. I guess wish me luck and I'll be sure to keep detailed notes so I can tell you all about it tomorrow.

I was going to post about the after prom threesome/first anal with two guys in one night/wearing stockings and a garter belt, tonight but I'm starting to yawn. I hope you'll forgive me. I'm sure I'll be writing about it soon anyways, but I need my beauty sleep. I have a long day ahead of me.

In response to anonymous comment that I should think about dancing:

I don't think many women dream of dancing. The money's good but not too many girls say they want to be exotic dancers when they grow up. That being said, I'd be lying if I said the thought hadn't crossed my mind. I've seen the money the dancers make. I'm making good money but they're making a ton more. However, I don't think I'd be happy doing it. I'd love the attention but it's just not me.

While, I'm far from being over weight - I do have a few extra pounds, I'm a little thicker then most of the girls that dance. I'm proud of my body, but I've heard some of the shit the girls get from some of the customers.

That'll be my excuse for tonight. There's more reasons but overall I just don't think dancing is right for me. Plus that fact that I can't dance/have no rhythm.

Just when I thought I was going to go to bed early again - Jill called me. We talked awkwardly for a few minutes before we suggested we talk face to face again.

We met at the half way point between our houses - a small park that's little more than a old playground set and couple of picnic tables. We used to sneak out at night and meet there. It was two minutes by bike or ten minutes walking.

She was already there, when I got there. Sitting on one of the picnic tables, staring at the moon.

At first we just talked. We're trying so hard to define what's going on between us but we can't. I mean, we've been friends for a long long time. But suddenly there's romance and lust. It's weird. Neither of us really understand it, our relationship, whatever.

But at the same time, none of it matters. We kissed softly, holding each other's hand. I think if she had been a guy, we would've had sex right on the bench. I think if we had been together before, something might've happened right there. Instead, we held each other, just kissing. I wanted to do more but at the same time I was very happy just kisisng her. And it's so different kissing her compared to kissing Adam or any guy. Her lips are so soft. Her lips taste so good. The smell of her perfume.

I can't wait for seven o'clock tomorrow evening. That's when she's going to pick me up then we're going to the hotel. She made reservations at this semi-fancy hotel in downtown Chicago. I have no idea how she's paying for it, since she works like one day a week. But she won't let me pay. I don't know if we're going to go straight there, or go out for dinner first or what.

I'm looking forward to it, but still I'm so confused. I mean - she's a girl. I've never had feelings like this before about another girl. I mean is it just lust mixed in with natural feelings of a friendship or is it more. Is this the start of a relationship, or just a fling? Is this going to be the end of our friendship. Will we still be friends twenty years from now when we're both married and reminisce about tomorrow night. Or will we avoid each other, like we've been kind of doing this week. And what if I really like it. What if we want to have a relationship. I love cock, but I think I'd learn to survive without for her. So many thoughts, so many questions - I guess most of them will be answered or at least have more of an answer after tomorrow.

It's kind of weird being home at this time of night, but there really wasn't much going on tonight so I stayed home.

Did get some good/bad news. The good news is that I've been promoted (if you can call it that, but my boss called it a promotion so whatever) to the night shift. I could've started Friday night, but I had to tell him I had other plans. He asked me if I was sure, and I was like "yeah, I'm pretty sure." They couldn't pay me enough to skip this night with Jill. The bad news is that there's a new dress code for the servers - we have to wear just black and white now. Which isn't the end of the world I guess but I just bought some outfits the other day for the "preppy" look they wanted me to have.

So I guess now I have to tell Adam that I'm quiting for sure.

And on a side note, I'm working on a new blog about anal sex- more of a "porn blog." Hopefully a way to have a little income while I'm at school. But don't worry this will still be my priority.

We were supposed to meet a little after one at his apartment. At one-thirty I was still sitting in my car, waiting for him. Even with A/C on full blast I was sweating. I even ate the fast food I had picked up for him. I tried calling the store but one of the other employees said he was busy. I didn't even have time to find out why he was busy before the girl hung up. I tried calling his cell, but of course there was no answer. I was just about to leave when he finally called to say he was on his way.

A few minutes later we were in his nice cool apartment. At first he started to explain why he was late, something about a last minute conference call, but I just started to kiss him.

I asked him real soft and seductively what sexual favor he wanted.

He sat down on the couch then pulled me towards him, then gently pushed me down to my knees. He unzipped his pants and pulled out his cock. He was still soft but I used my hands to bring him to life.

There wasn't any teasing, or anything like that. I went straight to work. I wasn't sure how long of a break he had. I wrapped my lips around his cock and went to work. Sliding my lips up and down him. It felt so good at first.

But after 12 minutes (not that I was counting) I was getting tired, my mouth and hands were starting to get sore. Then his cell phone rang - he had to answer it because it was the store calling. I took a quick break, grabbed some water then resumed the position. But he was still on the phone. At first I just gave him a little hand job to get his attention again. Then I put him back in my mouth. He tried to push me away but he didn't push to hard. But he kept talking. I think he was talking to his boss but that didn't stop me.

I could tell he was getting closer, and he was trying to get off the phone. I slowed down a little bit until he hung up the phone. Then I sprinted towards the finish. A few seconds later he was throbbing and exploding inside of my mouth.

When he was zipping his pants back up and making sure he was okay to go back to work, he said, "there's never a dull moment anytime we're together."

After I left his apartment, and he went back to work I had to run a couple of errands. One of them was to my insurance place to drop off a payment. I could still taste his cum, I felt like such a slut. And I got a glance of myself in the mirror - my lips were still very red and my face blush. I was glowing (kind of).

Last night, while we were out at some restaurant, I told Adam more about my other job. I wasn't sure how he'd react, he didn't seem like the jealous type of guy but you never know. He wasn't jealous at all, the thought it was great. He was telling me that I was the wildest girl he ever met, he was lucky to have me blah blah blah.

When we were standing between our cars, holding, hugging and kissing he told me that if I ever had any problem there to just call me. I thought it was kind of funny because they have big bouncers there to take care of any problems but I also don't think I'll have any serious problems. He's seen me get hit on by guys at the store and has told me I handle it pretty well.

Then he asked me if I wanted to have sex. He worded it a lot better than that but I told him I was tired (which is kind of sad because I was actually tired and not just making an excuse). But as we started to kiss good night our kisses got pretty hot and he started to push his hard cock against me. It was too much for me to resist. I asked him if he wanted to do it right there, he was thinking of finding some place where we could be alone but right there sounded pretty good.

We were in the back of a pretty large parking lot. And the entire time we had been out there neither of us had seen anyone else any where near us. And in between our cars we were pretty hidden.

Out kissing became full of just lust, almost out of control. He pushed me up against my car. It was damp from the humid air but I didn't care. I unzipped his jeans and felt his hard cock. I took it out of his pants, then pulled up my skirt just enough. I was wearing a black cotton thong (for those interested) and he just moved it out of the way.

Then right before we started, we were silent for a minute. Making sure we were alone, then he pushed up and into me. It wasn't the easiest position for either of us but it felt good and the chance that we might get caught made it even better.

He only lasted a few minutes, in one final thrust that lifted me on to my toes he came in me. It's probably a good thing that he came quickly because we didn't get caught. And even though it was a little short, I enjoyed it. My heart was beating, my breath was hard

Maybe I'm lazy or something but I just called into work, telling Adam I couldn't come in today. He didn't even ask me why but he did tell me I'd have to make it up to him. I thought he was talking about tonight when he gets out of work. We might still hang out after work but he told me he was sitting in his little office in the back of the store with a huge hard-on that needed me to satisfy. So, I'm going to meet him at his apartment this afternoon during his lunch break.

I'm paying for waking up so easy this morning, I'm exhausted right now. Had an interesting night with Adam but I'm a little too tired to write about it. I'm sorry. And lots of great comments that I have to respond to. I'll be around in the morning - I think I only work my retail job tomorrow. And me and Jill decided Friday night will be our night and we're leaning towards getting a hotel room. It should be amazing.

Getting up in the morning for work, yes even working in a "strip club" is work. And yes waking up around 8:45 am is pretty early if you're a college student. I've been having problems getting up in time but today it was easy. And it helped that I'm working on a big cup of coffee next to me. Other than that I don't have much time before I have to start getting ready. Just wanted to thank everyone for stopping by and posting comments. I'm not sure when my next post is, I'm going over to Adam's tonight no matter how tired I am.

One last post for the night - This one's about the lingerie present from an ex-boyfriend. I don't know what he was thinking if he thought a present like that would make me want to start sleeping with him again.

The lingerie was this sheer black babydoll thing. It splits down the middle and the cups are satin. It was a matching string thong. Actually, I kind of like it. I'd picked it out for myself.

If it wasn't for him. It arrived on a Friday afternoon my first semester of college. After I opened it up, I threw the box on my bed and forget about it.

That night, we had her boyfriend and a few of his friends over to our dorm room to do a little pre drinking before we went out. At some point when we were all drunk, someone noticed the box and pulled it out.

My roommate said I had to try it on. Me being drunk I agreed. We made all the guys look the other way (the most effective way of preventing them from seeing me naked) then I put on the lingerie. They still got a show though. The thong was really tiny and didn't hide much.

I'll admit it turned me on. Having the three guys leering at me. And they were leering at me.

My roommate even took a couple of pictures and I may have posed for one of the pictures bending over. We were going to email the pictures to my ex but never did.

My top five sex experiences in no particular order. (And I hope to add a new experience with Jill to the list very soon.)

My first double penetration with Nick and Jack. Pretty mind blowing to say the least. And the orgasm was amazing. Maybe the best threesome I've ever had.

The night with Christine and Garrett in the hotel room. Even though it was with them, it's still a night I think about it a lot. I kind of wonder what fun the three of us could've had together.

The first time I did anal may have not been the most satisfying but it opened me up to the whole new world of anal sex.

The first time I did anal with two guys - well not at the same time but one after another. It was prom night, not my prom but a senior one. Somehow, after the prom and after post prom parties I ended up in a hotel room with my prom date and one of his friends. With my stockings and garterbelt still on my date fucked my ass doggy style. Then when he was done other guy took his turn. It wasn't really a threesome but it was my first time with more than one guy. Also made me realize how much I enjoyed satisfying men.

The first time I had sex outside - well outside and not in a car. A hot summer night one summer. It was pretty romantic at the time. A quiet park along a river, he stars, and he brought a blanket. I actually didn't plan on having anal sex with him. There wasn't much of a chance of being caught but the risk was a major turn on for both of us. Probably the main reason, I'm attracted to having sex in parks and forest reserves.

And I'm sure there were other times that I'm not thinking of right now. And there were lots of hot nights, a few mornings a and bunch of afternoons that were just one on one. Maybe not the greatest stories but some of the best sex I've had was kind of boring sex.

And I reserve the right to edit or change this list because I'm sure I'll think of others.

So I had kind of a rough day today. The club was pretty slow to start off with then the last hour I was there, we were slammed. The busiest I've seen it so far. And I was wearing my new sandals, I thought my feet would be fine but now I have blisters. Blah. However, they did tell me they wanted me to start working nights. So that was some good news, and I'd be happy if I wasn't so mentally exhausted.

Then at the second job, I get yelled at by a customer. I wouldn't do her return for her - because she had worn it and washed it. She said nothing was wrong with it just that she was never going to wear it. People are such liars. I mean I could feel that the fabric had been washed. And to make things worse, I'm not even suppose to do returns - it's the managers job. But Kim taught me how to do it the other week and when the customer came in she was in the back. So blah.

Then after work I was supposed to go to Adam's but I really wasn't in the mood. Plus at the time I was pretty tired. Which, sucks because I'm wide awake right now. I told him I had to tell him something tonight. At first he reacted like I was going to tell him I was pregnant or breaking up with him. Then I told him I was thinking about quitting because I had another job. And when he asked me where I was working, I just told him I was waitressing. I'm going to tell him where just not something I want to tell him over the phone.

Most of the time when I'm writing I'll start rubbing myself. Usually at first it's over my clothes and I don't even realize I'm doing it. I love the feel of the fabric against me, especially if it's the soft fabric of a sexy pair of panties. And there's times when I get into when my pants or whatever will come undone and my hands will sneak into my panties. But after I'm done writing, I usually stop.

But last night I couldn't stop. I couldn't stop thinking about Jill. I was going to write about some of my best sexual experiences but that made it even worse. I was rubbing myself more than I was typing - a lot more.

Finally I gave up trying to resist. I started to take off all my clothes. Then got into bed. At first it was going great. I was rubbing myself, started to fondle my breasts. Teasing my nipples. Caressing myself. Then I used both hands. One to finger myself. The other feeling my clit. I moaned softly.

I came close but couldn't get there. I needed more. I found my dildo in a drawer. It was only the second time I've tried using it. I warmed it in my hands, pretending it was a real cock, then pushed it against my lips. It easily slipped into me. I fucked myself quickly with it. It felt good, really good.

And it felt good for about fifteen minutes, but no orgasm. Then I just kind of lost the moment. Kind of disappointed. But I think with the right help, (Jill) I'll be able to get all the satisfaction I need. I'm also going to go shopping online the next time I have a chance to buy that dildo I keep talking about.

I was going to write about my top sexual experiences but just thinking about them, along with my experience with Jill today has made me want to satisfy myself. I hope no one minds.

Tonight, was the first night Jill and I hung out since our like experience/exploration. At first, it was a little awkward in the car on the way too the mall. Neither of us were saying much and I was thinking that maybe it was all a bad idea after all. Then at the same time we saw this girl that we knew from high school driving in the lane next to us. We both started to make fun of her and laughing and from there on we couldn't stop talking. It was pretty much back to normal.

The only awkward part was when we were at one of the stores and wanted to try something on. The girl helping us asked if we wanted to share a fitting room. We've shared fitting rooms maybe fifty times, changed in front of each other a bunch more times but this time we didn't know what to say. There was a brief silence then we decided on separate rooms.

But for the most part besides that incident things were pretty normal until we got with in a block of her house. That's when she told me to keep driving.

We drove in silence for a few minutes until I found a place where we could talk without anyone bothering us. We ended up in an office building parking lot. We had the place to ourselves, which normally would've been a good thing. But it was so silent that when I turned off the car the lack of sound was eerie.

I was about to speak when she interrupted me. She said, "I have these feelings for you. That are beyond friendship. Something I've never felt towards another woman before. And I think you have the same feelings."

I told her, that I felt an attraction towards her that I had never felt before. Just saying it felt weird.

Then we kissed. It was a soft kiss, but felt full of passion. She held the back of my neck and brought me closer to her. She tasted beautiful. She smelled amazing.

We both agreed that maybe we were bisexual. She said, she wasn't sure if she was ready for a relationship. Said, she didn't want to ruin our friendship. Basically she said everything I had been thinking about.

I suggested that our next experience should be just the two of us. We should be sober, or at least not shitty drunk.

She suggested we get a hotel room sometime this week or coming weekend. Something romantic. I said, yes but I would've been happy just being alone with her in my bedroom or even right there.

We kissed again. This kiss was harder, more lust then anything else. Our tongues explored each others mouth. Her hand explored my bare thigh. Slowly rubbing my thigh from my knees to under my skirt. Her hands were so soft. So warm.

Twice her fingers brushed my panties. I was wet.

Then she pulled back. At first, I didn't want it to stop but then I realized I didn't want our first time to be in my dirty car. But I don't think I'll be able to wait too long. The feelings inside of me feel like they're going to explode.

I drove her home. We both agreed that we didn't want anyone else finding out about this. (whatever this is)

I'm pretty exhausted right now - I didn't think there would be many people at the club today - I mean it was a Monday afternoon. I was told it's busier at night, but it was pretty busy today. Even my feet hurt, but I have some money to show for it. I'm going to see how this week goes but I have a feeling I'm going to quit my other job.

It's nice to finally have some money. I'm going shopping at that mall with Jill tonight. I wasn't sure if I wanted to tell her about my new job, but she accidently found out about it. She called me this afternoon, and I was on a break, but you could still hear the music in the background I guess.

And I guess I should get going, I worked up a sweat serving drinks and teasing men today. ;-)

I didn't do much today, just spent a much needed day of relaxing. Spent most of the afternoon at the neighborhood pool. It's definitely not the same as the pool at Jill's house but it was too hot to be anywhere else then besides a pool.

It would've been nice to be at Jill's pool because there were a lot of little kids there and a lot of noise but when I called Jill she was planning to spend the day with Joey.

And at first it was awkward. It was the first time we've talked since Friday night, but by the time we got off it was almost normal again. She even brought up that we should hang out sometime soon to talk.

When Adam got out of work, I meet up with him and we went out for dinner. He either doesn't think we're going to get caught by one our coworkers or doesn't care anymore about getting caught because we went to one of the restaurants just down the street from the mall where we work.

Now, he said the waitress was flirting with me, but I just think she was trying to get a bigger tip. However, she did serve me liquor without even asking for my ID. And it feels weird saying this but I thought she was cute too. I've always noticed girls, I guess but now it's different.

Right before we were leaving, Adam disappeared for a few minutes longer than it takes to go to the bathroom. After we walked out the door, he told me he had gotten her number. I know Adam can be good with words, but I didn't know how he pulled off that one until he told me didn't get the number for himself, but got the number for me instead. If the mood hadn't been so non-serious it probably would've been bad but instead I was just pretend mad at him.

We were going to go to his place but it was just too nice of night to go back to his apartment. He said, he knew some place to go but instead we spent a half hour driving around trying to find it. I can't totally blame him, he's only been living in the area for half a year but instead we just wasted time and ended up going back to his apartment again.

Tonight, was definitely better than last night. We both a lot more awake, especially him. He was more aggressive then he had even been before. As soon as we were in the door, he wrapped his arms around me. Kissing me neck, and telling me how good I smelled. We kind of stumbled into his bedroom.

Most of the time, I'll give him a blowjob without him asking. He doesn't even have to hint at it, I'll just go down on him. It's something I really enjoy doing but tonight , he sat on the bed and kind of forced (forced being the totally wrong word but you get the idea) me on to my knees in front of him. He unzipped his shorts and told me to "get to work."

Normally, when I start a blowjob I start with some teasing, some licking and some sucking on just the head. But as soon as I started doing that he told me to skip that part. I went from sucking on tip, to putting his cock deep into my mouth.

I've given more than a few blowjobs but I'm not exactly an expert (yet) and deep throating isn't always the easiest thing to do. It's something I like to work up to, but he grabbed the back of my head. He's the only guy that can get way with that, most of the time that annoys me, but with him it turns me on, even when he pushed it too deep into my mouth.

I was going up and down with my lips as quickly as I could for several minutes. Most of the time that'll make him and most guys cum but he didn't seem anywhere closer. That's when he pulled his cock out of my mouth. He guided me on to the bed. He had my me lay on my back, then he took off my shirt and bra. He then took the lube out of my purse and I realized what he was doing.

He dripped the lube between my breasts, then rubbed it all over the area. It felt so good. Then he had put his cock between them and had me push my tits together. It was the first time I've ever been truly titty fucked. I mean, you know I've sort of done it during blowjobs but this was different. It felt a little weird, but I liked it almost as much as he did. And it looked really cool too.

It was only a couple more minutes before he was ready to cum but stopped before he did. Instead he moved so he was kind of hanging over my face. I grabbed his cock with my lips and started to suck on it. It was so weird at that angle but he eventually took over. Slowly and very carefully he fucked my mouth. Another first.

It wasn't long before he was cumming, exploding into my mouth. I enjoyed all of his cum, swallowing it all.

But he wasn't done. He pulled off my jeans, then panties and started to down on me. It was nice but I wanted more. As soon as I saw that he was half hard again I pulled him on top me. Bringing his cock to complete solidness with my hands and dirty talk then guiding him into me. We fucked missionary, then doggy. But after a few minutes I told him to get the lube again.

He poured on to my ass. Finger fucking my ass. I couldn't talk anymore. All I could do was moan. Then he put his cock into my ass. I know it's bad but all I could think about was Nick and Jack (especially Nick). Slowly he fucked my ass. Quickly he fucked it. Then he fucked me as hard as he could. We changed positions, so that I lying on my stomach. He started to pound me again. I couldn't believe how hard he was fucking me. Fucking my ass.

And finally when I didn't think I could take it anymore he came in my ass.

We were both quiet for a while, but laid together for a while.

I broke the silence by saying jokingly, "Is there anywhere else left to fuck?"

He told me it was the best sex he ever had. It was good but I don't know if I'd even put it on my top list. I just told him that I really enjoyed being his slut and his sex toy which is what we've started calling each other.

I spent last night at Adam's. It seems like my parent's are starting to realize I'm not there little girl anymore. I wasn't planning on sleeping over but I fell asleep and didn't wake up until this morning. Normally, when I'm sleeping somewhere they want me to let them know which one of my friend's house I'm staying at or I'll get a phone call at like seven in the morning when they wake up and realize I'm not home. But there was none of that and when I got home this morning neither of them said anything. Maybe they just assumed I was sleeping at one of my friend's or maybe they're starting to finally realize I'm in college.

The sex wasn't anything spectacular last night (however, it wasn't bad at all). We just did it once, missionary style before I fell asleep. I think I was asleep by eleven, which may be a new record. But what happened, before we had sex was pretty interesting.

We were on his bed fooling around. Our clothes were starting to come off. He was on top of me and we were kissing. He was feeling me. I had my hands inside his pants. That's when he started talking. Adam's a pretty talkative guy but never during, before, after or around sex. But last night he brough up Lisa. He told me the idea of me with another girl really turned him on. I even felt his cock grow rock hard as he talked about it. Then he told me about a friend of his that he used to fool around with. A girl who was pretty wild in bed (but not as wild as me), that used to talk about her experiences with other girls. He's still pretty good friends with her and talked to her yesterday about maybe hanging out again. That is if I didn't have a problem with that.

I told him I was interested but wanted to meet her first. He suggested the three of us hang out as soon as tonight. I played it off like I might have something to do tonight. But at the same time I'd like to hang out with her tonight. However, I don't know. I kind of feel like he's using me as a sex toy, which is okay because I know I'm using him as a sex toy. But I guess what is really making me hesitate is Jill. She's really the only girl I want to be with.

Things were hot from the beginning.

We were all supposed to meet last night at the hotel at 9:30. 9:30 came and went and it was still just me and Adam. We sat in his car just talking for a while. Of course with us talking turns into making out. We were actually getting pretty hot and heavy - he had climbed over to my side of the card and was kind of top of me. Well at least as much as two people could be in the passenger seat of his Jeep. My skirt was around my hips, his fingers inside of me and the other hand was up my tank top. Then he used both hands to lift my tank top off my breasts and took them out of there bra.

Of course it was right then that Jill called. I didn't want to answer but I was a little worried since it was already past ten. Adam stopped for a minute but after I was on the phone for a few minutes he started to finger me again. Jill noticed my heavy breathing pretty quickly even though I tried to suppress it. But I played it off like my allergies/asthma were bothering me.

Jill was calling to say they were finally on their way, they had spent an hour trying to find some place to buy some liquor and beer (which was pretty stupid because she knew Adam was over 21).

But it gave me and Adam more time. As soon as he got off the phone, I told him I needed more than just fingering. He pushed my seat back, then undid his jeans just enough. The car was already hot but it got a lot hotter quickly.

It wasn't great sex, in fact the position was kind of awkward but it felt good to have him in me. And I had one of those moments where I couldn't believe I had a man inside of me. Sometimes I get a little weird and sex still amazes me.

It must have felt really good for him too because he only lasted a couple of minutes. Which did kind of suck but left me plenty of time to fix my hair and make up. However, that made him think like I was trying to impress someone that was going to be there other than him. He was really wrong.

Besides Jill's ex (Joey), there were two of his guy friends. Both I knew from high school. Both who I was kind of friends with in class but if I saw them walking through the mall I'd try to avoid. Neither of them were too visual appealing.

At first it was just the six of us - we're having a little fun. Adam was getting a long great with every body, which surprised me a little. Jill and her ex were getting along. I was even enjoying catching up with Jose and Luke (the ex's friends). I think it was all because we had a nice buzzing going pretty quick. We were doing some shots and drinking the beers pretty quickly.

Then the balance changed - four girls that Jose and Luke had invited showed up. I kind of knew them - they went to another school but I had seen them at parties and basketball games before. I didn't dislike them I just didn't know them and neither I or them tried last night to really get to know each other immediately.

Plus, it didn't help that the room started to get really hot.

And then we were out of beer and we quickly finished the two bottles of liquor we had. Adam and Joey went to get more beer - they were getting a long great and were even acting like friends that had known each other for a while.

While they were gone, the four girls decided they wanted to go swimming. Which really sounded like a good idea except that I had no bikini - but that didn't seem to stop them. They ran down stairs to the pool with Joey and Luke, Jill and I slowly followed. While we were walking through the hallways, I thought about asking Jill about the other night but I got nervous.

But Jill and I did end up talking for a little while. We sat on the edge of the pool, legs dipped in to the water.

The group was making a ton of noise, especially when the girls started to strip down to there underwear (which seems to be standard back up swimwear these days because I was thinking the same thing). I thought for sure we were going to get kicked out. It wasn't until this morning that I found out Luke's uncle was the owner or manager or something so as long as we didn't wake up anyone it was cool.

They were having a lot of fun playing around in the water. The water felt so cool and the pool room was so hot that I gave in. If it wasn't for nice buzz I probably wouldn't have but I took off my tank top then skirt and slid into the pool. It felt so cool and relaxing. It took a little convincing but I got Jill into the pool too.

Adam and Joey finally came back with more liquor and after a few more drinks I was having as much fun as the other crowd. Acting silly and flirtatious. Luke noticed that I was wearing a thong and at first I thought there was going to be a problem because he was trying to grab my ass and rub up against me but Adam didn't seem to mind and I thought it was kind of funny - I even let him grab my ass. I was having so much fun that I didn't even notice Joey and Jill disappear.

That's when I asked Adam if he wanted to go back up to the room. He told me that Jill and Joey were up there. I told them that they wouldn't mind but when we got up to the room the do not disturb sign was up and they wouldn't even open it for me.

I had been walking around with just my underwear and a towel on because my clothes had gotten wet when I left them too close to the pool. Adam suggested we find the laundry room. Luckily, Adam had some change with him.

He put my skirt and shirt in then suggested I put my bra and panties in. Which I removed very carefully because there wasn't a door to the laundry room.

I sat on the dryer while he stood. At first it seemed like it was going to be all innocent because we were just talking. Then he brought up Lisa - one of the girls that was friends with Luke and Jose. I didn't realize how drunk he was until know because he started telling me how hot he thought she was. That's when I realized he was going drink for drink with some of the guys. Adam can drink but he doesn't drink every day like they do.

I asked him if he wanted to fuck her. The answer was yes. And that turned me on. I'll admit if she had a mute button I'd be attracted to her. Not attracted like I am too Jill - it's pure lust with Lisa. I asked him if he wanted to see me go down on her. He smiled and said "oh yeah." And I told him that turned me on too.

We started kissing and he didn't wait long to take my towel off. He started at my lips, then my neck, then kissed my breasts. Then he went further down. At first it was just kisses but then he started to lick between my legs. It wasn't the best oral I've ever received but warmed me up enough where I wanted more. I wanted his cock but when I undid his pants he was only half erect, not hard enough.

I got off the dryer and on to my knees in front of him, using my towel as a cushion. I put him in my mouth. I sucked him for a while only stopping when I thought I heard someone. A little improvement but not enough. I even put him between my breasts, I've had guys just cum from that. Nothing from him.

But I wasn't going to give up until he said he had pee. My clothes were dry and we went back up to the room. We found the door open this time but Luke was lying on the ground in front of it. I guess he was mad because Lisa (who I learned was his sort of girlfriend) wouldn't sleep with him. I can't blame her the room was still crowded even with two of the girls having gone home. With the help of Joey and Jose they got him to the car and Jose took him home.

I was kind of disappointed when Lisa and the other girl left but it was now just the four of us - Lisa, her boyfriend, Adam and me. But after Adam went the bathroom he passed out on one of the beds.

The three of us kept drinking. I would've stopped but I was finally almost feeling enough liquid courage to ask her. We were all pretty drunk, but Joey fell asleep in one of the chairs.

That's when I whispered - "Do you remember the other night?"

She didn't answer at first. Then she said, "I almost thought it was a dream."

I didn't know what else to say but we didn't have to. I joined her on the other bed and we started to kiss. Soft, sloppy kisses but full of lust.

I wish I could remember more but the next thing I remember was that the lights were off and I was naked and she was taking her clothes off too.

We got under the covers together. Kissing, exploring each others bodies with our hands, fingers and then mouths.

But before things got too serious - we passed out. I woke up at some point and climbed into Adam's bed. I didn't mean to wake up but I did. And after he went to the bathroom again, he climbed on top of me. This time there wasn't any problem. And of course this time that I wanted a quickie he lasted for what seemed like forever. He was back to his normal source - not fucking me as hard as he could but it was powerful. He stopped just short of making the bed shake.

When he got close he pulled out. I don't know why but I did kind of like what happened. He exploded - cum first hit my tits. And not a little, a lot of cum. A few shots even hit my shoulder and chin but most of it was on my stomach. It's not the first time a guy's done that, I mean I used to have every guy do that because I thought it was a real way of protecting us from pregnancy (man am I lucky) but it was definitely the largest or most cum ever. He apologized but I liked it. It made me feel so slutty.

And finally I was ready to go to sleep. I cleaned myself up, I laid in his arms. I could've slept like that forever but at eight we had to get up. He had to get work.

Neither Jill or Joey heard us leave.

All I can think about is Jill now. I want to do more and I want to do it sober. But I don't see that happening soon. I'm going to take a nap then call her. I'm too worked up to wait much longer. I want to spend some time with just me and her.

I'm just getting home now, so you know I had a fun night. I'm a lot less hungover then I thought I'd be. I might even go workout with Veronica after a nap.

But before I take a nap I'm going to try to write about last night. It's weird because I feel like I have to write it down right now. Even last night I was thinking about how I was going to describe things. I can't promise the best writing at this time of the morning but I'm going to have to write it now.

Sorry I haven't been posting much. This morning I woke up too late and tonight I have a few minutes so I'll give a brief update I guess. However, last night's brief update turned into a book. I don't have that much time tonight, just waiting for Adam to get here.

Working at the club is starting to seem like work. Yesterday was a lot of fun, today was still better than working at the store but it felt a lot more like work. Plus now I'm seeing a lot of the behind the scenes things and it seems more like a business than a fantasy world. However, the money was a lot better than it was yesterday so I'm still pretty happy. If the money is like this I might quit the other job. I'm not so sure Adam would like that but that might make things a little less stressful between us.

And I'm pretty excited Adam's coming to the party tonight. It's about time we hang out with my friends instead of his all the time. Plus I'm in need of some sexual satisfaction and who knows what I'd do if he wasn't there. Just joking, Jill's boyfriend's friends (got that?) are all pretty nasty. I don't know where I'm going to sleep tonight at the hotel or at his place. I think if we go to his place we'll have a lot more private time.

I think I should get going now - he should be here in the next couple of minutes.

So, I'm a little tired so there's only going to be a short version tonight. Sorry, I know a ten hour day between two jobs plus driving really isn't that bad compared to what some people work but it was a little much for me plus the fact that I'm not getting as much sleep as I would've liked this week.

But the work was good - today was mostly orientation at the club - getting to know settings, the special, the drinks things like that. The day time bartender is super cool and so is the other server. A couple of the dancers that I talked to were nice and even helpful. I even had a couple of helpful customers. And for the most part all the customers were cool but it was day time and there weren't any drunks. I made a little bit of money, just a tad more than what I make at the other job but it could quickly increase. Sometime when I'm not so tired I'll talk more about the club and what not.

I was dragging thru work at the other job which is totally different than the normally cheerful me. Even Adam noticed and suggested I go home after work instead of going over to his place. I haven't told him about my new job but I'm going to in the next couple of days. Anyways, I really should get to sleep. I wanted to go to bed way earlier but I only got home a little while ago. Instead of me going straight home after work we ended up talking for a while. It could've led to sex again but I was literally too tired.

Oh and before I forget - Jill's ex boyfriend is having a hotel party tomorrow night. I didn't really want to go but she wouldn't go without me because it's going to be a bunch of his friends. But I said I wouldn't go if I couldn't bring Adam. Her ex said okay and even Adam said he's come along. It's either going to be a lot of fun or we're going to listen to them argue the whole time. Either way there's going to be a lot of liquor.

I'm actually kind of nervous right no. More nervous than I was before the interview. I feel like it's the first day of school. I guess just wish me luck, but I'm sure I'll be fine.

Adam and I went to see Nacho Libre tonight - it was kind of funny, but not as funny as School of Rock. But I don't think you really want to hear about my movie reviews - and I don't think we went to the movies tonight to watch the movie. We sat in the back row like I normally do but so did two other couples. One of on each side of me and Adam and a little too close to us. They really prevented me from having a lot of fun.

We still had a pretty wild night though - as soon as the lights went off we started kissing. Kisses full of lust and passion that reminded me of our sex on his desk. When the movie started I tried to pay attention but I just couldn't.

Things were pretty calm until maybe halfway thru the movie when I started to get bored. Very carefully without anyone being able to see one of my hands made it's way into Adam's jeans. He was already hard, I had been rubbing him through the fabric of his jeans for a while. I wanted to go down on him, we even went to the theater where the arm rests go up but twice I caught a guy looking at me. Sometimes that may have turned me on but not tonight. This guy just didn't make me feel right.

When the movie finally ended, we were the first ones out of the theater. He started to climb into the drivers seat but I directed him into the back seat. We just made out at first, but that led to me laying down with him on top of me. He grinded his cock against me and I felt like I was back in high school. But it kind of turned me on.

I was already horny but this brought me to the point where I needed him. He took off my jeans, left my satin thong on but pushed it to the side. I undid his jeans and belt then he pushed them and his boxers down to his knees. I guided him into me.

Slowly he fucked me. It was kind of a missionary position but it was difficult even in his roomy backseat. But it forced us to be very close, his hot body on me. His hot breath on my face. I wrapped my arms around his back bringing him even closer.

He went slow but it was only a few minutes before he was getting close. I felt him start to fuck me faster. I told him to cum inside me and after a few more hard thrusts he stopped deep inside of me. His cock throbbed and I pulled him deeper into me.

It was definitely something we had both needed. We made plans to see each other again after work tomorrow night (that is if I survive both jobs), we both close so we could go straight to his apartment but at the same time I don't want to see too much of him. I don't want him to become to attached to me, I want to see other men and other people. Plus, I'm still a little mad about him for not showing up at the BBQ - he didn't really tell me why he couldn't come either.

So, I didn't hang out with Jill today. When I called to tell her I was ready, she said she was still feeling sick. But when I called Veronica to tell her how the interview went we ended up going to work out, then going for a run. Definetly something I needed to do and it got rid of any hangover effects I was still feeling. Going to go see a movie with Adam. Kind of weird going on actual dates with him.

Now I'm not sure if I'm going to talk to Jill about last night - but I'm not so sure I want to bring it up if she doesn't bring it up. I mean I want to bring it up, I want to tell her that I have feelings (or lust) for her but I don't know if I'm ready yet. However, even at the interivew I was thinking about her. Thinking about her soft lips, thinking about how my fingers felt inside of her, her hands on my breasts. So, I don't know. We're still on to hang out tonight but we'll see what happens.

And Adam's called me a couple of times today. I haven't called him back yet. He was supposed to come over to the BBQ last night but he didn't. I half expected it but I would've liked to know. But the funny part is I really don't care what he did. I want to see him. I want to fuck him so badly.

I got the job, I start Thursday for the lunch shift. I'm pretty excitied.

I had no idea strip clubs were open during the day, in fact I didn't know much about them until today. It was my first time ever in one. The one I'm working at reminds me a lot of a regular dance club excpet for there's girls are naked. In fact it was a lot like a regular business except for the naked girls. The owner interviewed me and was a lot more professional than I expected him to be. He was nice but pretty serious. And everyone I talked to - the DJ, the bartender and a couple of the dancers were really nice. I tottally didn't expect it to be like this.

I'm really looking forward to starting except the owner wants me to dress preppy which I do a little but he wants me to look like I just walked out of Hollister or Amberchrombie. He said, he already had a "punk rock emo girl." I don't really have a problem with that except I don't really like being told what to wear but I guess it's better than a real uniform or wearing a bra like I thought I might have to.

And other than it cutting into my free time I really can't complain. I'm going to work a few day shifts to get used to everything and if I do well they'll put me on at night. Not sure how I'm going to explain getting home at three or four in the morning on a semi-regular basis but I'm sure I'll figure it out.

I'm still a little hungover today, I got a little too drunk yesterday but not as drunk as Jill. We started drinking mid afternoon and didn't really stop until midnight.

At first it was a lot of fun. I had a nice buzz on. We were playing around in the pool with some of her cousins and some kids from the neighborhood. We even played marco polo - but most of it was just splashing, wrestling and trying to push people under water. At one point I was wrestling with this one 15 year old boy and he grabbed my boob. Me and Jill responded by teaming up against him.

Jill's dad was in the pool for a while too - it was the first time I had seen him without a shirt on in years - he's been working out. And I wrestled with him a little too - letting him win, pinning me up against the pool wall. He had my arms locked above my head and he was close enough where we could've kissed. It was kind of awkward for a second.

And I was flirting a lot with her dad until the women he's seeing showed up. Which was probably a good thing for me, but not such a good thing for Jill. It was the first time she had met her and they didn't exactly hit it off too well. The woman was nice but I don't think Jill was ready to see her dad with other women even though it's been a couple of years since the divorce.

We avoided the woman by hanging out by the keg inside the kitchen for a while which is when we went from being buzzed to drunk.

Then Jill's exboyfriend had showed up. They had dated for almost two years and things weren't always healthy between them. They used to get into some pretty serious fights. But I guess she had invited him after Ricco broke up with her last week. That's a whole other story.

At first they got along pretty well, even acted like a couple for a while until he was leaving to go watch some fireworks. He said it was with his family but neither I or Jill believed that. That made her drink even more, she kind of tried to use alcohol to make things better, which isn't really like her at all.

Things did mellow out a little, we watched a home made fireworks show down the street and even Jill and her dad's girlfriend got along. After that most of the people went home except a few of us that hung out in the back yard just drinking.

I think it was about midnight when Jill told me she didn't feel well. I followed her/helped her to the bathroom. She puked. I held her hair, then got her some water after I helped her to bed.

I sat on her bed while we talked. It was one of those drunk talks - we don't need these men, we need some real mature men. Blah blah blah. We promised to stay friends forever and not forget about each other again while we were at school.

Then she pulled me down on top of her to hug me. Then she kissed me, I can't tell you how happy I was. And it wasn't one of those friend kisses either. She tasted like beer and what not but I didn't even really notice.

She pulled me on top of her and things started getting pretty intense. Our bodies laying together. I could feel her breasts against mine. It was so hot. She started to grind her body against mine as we kissed. She felt me up, pulling my breasts out of my bikini. One of my hands found my way between her legs. I started to rub her. She was so wet. I couldn't believe it was happening.

And then she passed out. I didn't move for a second, couldn't believe that had happened then laid down next to her. I ended up sleeping on the futon in her room, where I've slept many times before.

When I woke up this morning, it took me a second to remember what happened. She didn't say anything or act like anything had happened.

I didn't say anything either, but as I was driving home I realized I wished I had. After my interview, we're supposed to hang out. I'm going to have to tell her something.

Well, I'm out of here. Hope everyone is having/is going to have a great day. It doesn't get much better than it is here today. It's not too hot, lots of sun and I'm ready to party. I'm going over to Jill's for the BBQ. And when Adam gets out of work, he might come over. It would be the first time he's hanging out with my friends instead of me always hanging out with his friends. It should be an interesting day/night. See you soon.

I'm still not sure what I'm doing today. I'm not even sure what I'm doing awake so early but not much I can do about that now.

I woke up this morning very horny, but since I don't have anyone to take care of me (Adam's already at work) I'm going to take a long shower then run some errands. Errands are almost as fun as sex right?

Anyways - I may or may not be on before I go do whatever I'm going to do today.

I have a feeling it's either going to suck or be a really good day for me. There's a lot of choices for once.

My parent's are going up the lake again - I was thinking about going with them but it wouldn't be half as fun going up there without a "friend." Jill/her dad are having a BBQ, I have a feeling I'm going to end up there. Or I might end up going to the Taste, a big food festival downtown Chicago with some of my other friends. And Melissa invited me to go out on a boat with her and her friends. I'm kind of surprised to hear from her. Before this weekend we hadn't really talked for a couple weeks, that's about how often we usually call each other. And of course Adam wants to do something but he works until like five so we might do something after that.

Who knows.

I have an interview Wednesday afternoon at the club where Veronica works at. I was 99 percent sure I wasn't interested when I met up with her at the gym this afternoon. But when I got there I had to renew my membership to the gym, my card was declined. Veronica is way too nice, she paid for the month. She told me I didn't have to pay her back but I'm going to where I get paid on Friday (or maybe sooner if the interview goes well).

We talked for a while about it, even after our workout was over. She told how much money I could make, just by serving drinks and I almost couldn't believe it. I'd have spending money, be able to pay the bills I have and still save some for when I go back to school.

And she talked to me about the environment there. I was worried about the customers, but she said the bouncers take care of most of the problems before anything happens. And she talked about how it's like a family and that the owner is a really cool guy etc etc. She told me a whole lot, but when she told me about the money, she could've stopped - I was sold.

I just got home - had a pretty good night hanging out with some of my girlfriends. Just like old times, driving around looking for trouble. We ended up running into a bunch of people we went to high school with in a parking lot. Some the guys had brought cases of beer so I have a slight buzz still going right now. We watched two different things of fireworks and set off some of our own illegal fire works. It was a lot of fun.

But at the same time, even in the middle of a group of people I felt alone. I miss Nick. Maybe that's just the beer talking but I think I grew attached to him in a weird sort of way. I'm constantly wondering what it would be like if he lived here. And seeing couples watching the fireworks and holding each other, hugging, kissing and doing what couples do made me a little sad.

And when I was driving home I called Adam. I'd like to blame the alcohol for that but I wasn't nearly buzzed enough. I was thinking booty call but I'm kind of glad he didn't answer his phone.

Last night, was my last night with Nick - it might be the last night ever or it might be in six months when he might be back in town again - so I wanted it to be special. I wanted it to be just the two of us. I planned to go watch some fireworks with him but instead I was stuck at work. I think it was a ploy by Adam to get me to hang out with him. I was a little mean to him - it was Saturday night and we're usually done at 9:30 but we didn't get out until 10:15 when the fireworks were already very over.

I was a little disappointed, it seemed like such a great idea, and when I finally called Nick to tell him I was out, he noticed something was wrong. Originally after the fireworks we were going to go to a bar to meet up with some of his friends, then we'd go home just the two of us. But changed the plans, he thought we should still go to the forest preserve where we were planning to watch the fireworks.

But when we got to the forest preserve the park was closed, I was ready to turn around but he said find some place to park. We ended up having to park down the street, the walked (hiked in). It was kind of dark and I can walk around the city and have no problem at night but the woods kind of scare me. Nick held my hand in a sweet, romantic way.

We set up camp, a little blanket along the side of the lake (the same lake I went to with Jill the other day but this time we had the entire "beach" to ourselves. It was romantic, there was just enough light from the moon, he even had a bottle of wine (but not glasses but that was okay). The fireworks would've made everything perfect.

It was kind of weird being that alone but it was great. We passed the bottle back and forth, had a little buzz going.

Saturday night was the hottest night of the year. I had been sweating during the walk even though it was close to eleven it was still hot. And the wine wasn't really making anything better. When he suggested we go swimming, I didn't hesitate. But it was my idea to go skinny dipping.

At first, we were just playing around, wrestling, splashing and what not. But then we got serious again. He brought me close to him and we started kissing. I felt his rock hard cock against my stomach and smiled. He lifted me up, then on to his cock. I wrapped my legs and arms around him and slowly we fucked. It was more about the kissing, and the holding then the fucking. It was perfect for a while.

We stayed like that for a long time but then we got to the point where he needed to cum. But after a few minutes he started to get tired of holding me like that and I had lost my natural lubrication. Of course I went and got the lube out of my purse.

We tried standing up again in the water but lasted only a minute before he was tired again. We decided to try me laying down in the shallower water, him on top of me. It took a few moves to find the right depth of water, me half in before we found the right spot. It was no longer about being romantic, it was about making him cum.

He fucked me hard, I started to moan loudly, I didn't care who heard me. The only other sound was the water splashing.

It only took a few minutes before he was about to cum. He was on the edge for a while, then finally he started to cum. He exploded deep inside of me. I wrapped my legs around him, lifting me closer to him as he came. We stayed like that even after he was finished, until he started become soft.

We dried naturally on the blanket, finishing the wine, sitting there with him just holding me.

I didn't want it to end, but it had to. We got dressed, gathered up our stuff then made a quiet walk back to his car. Originally, I was planning on going home after that but I changed my mind. Even though, I hadn't made an excuse to my parents to stay out all night I didn't care. I wanted to spend a few more hours with Nick. I slept over at his house.

We slept naked but didn't have sex, he just held me close. But when we woke up the next morning we did it one last time. He fucked me hard, well kind of - we were trying to do our best to not make any noise. He came in me one last time then dashed off to the shower.

It was kind of embarrassing when I emerged from his bedroom and met his parents in the kitchen. They didn't seem to think it was odd though, they wanted to talk to me for a while and when they found out I would drive him to the airport they were happy.

I wanted a long good bye at the airport but instead we got a quick good bye kiss and hug because of all the parking restrictions. And it was weird seeing him in his uniform, but I felt so special having people look at us, then watching my lover go off to fight for our country (without the fighting part I guess/hope).

And when I was driving home, that's when I got a little sad. It had been an amazing week.

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Tonight, I hung out with Adam. We actually went out again on a date to a restaurant. Things were almost like nothing had happened except we had another talk. I told him I couldn't see just one guy right now, I couldn't get into a serious relationship and he seemed to understand.

I love the comments, they made me smile this morning

I just dropped Nick off at the airport, I'm a little sad right now - imaging what it would be like if he didn't have to leave, wondering when the next time I'll see him.

I'm going to try to sleep now, even though I really don't want to, me and Nick didn't get much sleep last night and I have to work at noon.

I'm not really looking forward to seeing Adam, we kind of had a little argument last night.

I'll of course post all the details at some point, I'm not sure when because after work I told Adam I'd hang out with them but I don't know. And then Jack wants to hang out, but after last night I really don't want to hang out with him. But at the same time, I want to see him sexually - just don't want to date him anymore (I think).

I'm really thinking too much for eight in the morning.

I'm slightly hung over right now but I can't sleep anymore. I woke early this morning, the sun shining into Jack's bedroom. No one had bothered to shut the blinds and of course I was the only one who the sun woke up. And I slept off and on for a while in my bed but it wasn't one of those great sleeps that I need.

Well, last night was kind of wild. The three of us met up with a bunch of there friends at a bar to do some pre-drinking. I think Nick was only slightly buzzed when we got there even though he had been drinking since like mid afternoon. And when we left after doing a few shots, drinking a few beers and what not - I was feeling very buzzed but I think he was actually feeling more sober. But both of us were very horny - during the drive over to the club he sat in the back seat with me. We were kissing, feeling and he had his hands up my skirt fingering me. I caught Jack looking back at us in the rear view mirror a couple of times. I winked at him and he smiled.

The club was packed but we took up residence at one of the bars. They were having a lot of fun just talking and drinking but after a few drinks I wanted to dance. I danced by myself for a little while which is kind odd because usually I hate dancing, especially by myself. But the music was right.

I had a few guys try to dance with me but only one seemed at all worth while. We danced for a few songs and his hands held my waist, our bodies came closer and then our bodies started to grind to the beat. It got kind of hot, he definitely had a hard on but when the music changed I knew I didn't want to spend all night with him. He didn't want me to leave, but when I told him my boyfriend was at the bar he left me alone.

But at the bar Nick was talking to some girl, when I got closer I saw that it was one of my friends, Melissa (one of the girls I went clubbing with a few weeks ago in the city). We ran up to each other and hugged, I was surprised to see her there because she claims to hate the clubs in the suburbs. I was really glad to see her, it was nice to have someone to talk to besides the guys.

It didn't take her long to figure out that I had something going on with Nick or Jack - she just didn't know who and asked me. I just told her it was hard to explain, because I still don't think I can explain it.

Some how we all got invited up to the VIP room. I was kind of excited, I felt pretty special until I realized the VIP room was just another room, a little less crowded, with more expensive liquor and of course no real VIP's.

But we had a lot of fun, we're ordering drinks and more drinks. Then Nick decides its time to do shots. I didn't realize that he meant body shots until he bought a bottle of tequila. I tried (but not too hard) to keep him from pulling my breast out of my shirt. I mean the room had a at least a hundred people there, plus I thought we'd get kicked out of the club. We didn't kick out and I don't even think many people noticed.

Nick did the first one off me, then he did one off of Melissa. I was surprised she went for it. Then the guys wanted me to do one of Melissa. I wasn't going to, until she told me it was okay. I might've sucked on her nipple a little longer than I had too - it was almost all about putting on a show but I did enjoy it a little. And then he poured a shot into each of our mouths and we kissed. Maybe it was a little exciting but it was one of those kisses just for fun.

The rest of the group did normal shots and things kind of returned to normal except Nick ended up sitting between me and Melissa. They started kissing, and it was play kissing either. I was jealous. And only I could see because of a table blocking everyone else's view that his hand was rubbing between her legs. He knew I was watching and occasionally he'd rub my leg and kiss my cheek. If I hadn't been drunk I may have left, but instead I was enjoying the show.

The VIP room closed first - I ended up on the dance floor Jack. We were grinding - he was hard and a few times his hand ventured up my skirt. His hand felt so warm on my ass.

Then the rest of the club closed - we tried to find Nick but he was nowhere in sight so we were forced to wait outside. First we sat on the hood of his car watching the people flow out, he kissed me.

Still no sign of him, we got in his car and drove around the parking lot, it was still semi-full and we wondered if he was with Melissa looking for us. No sign of them.

And for a little while we forgot about them - we started kissing again - this time our kiss - fueled by liquor was full of lust and passion. I unzipped his pants and my hand started to rub his cock.

That's when his phone rang, he wasn't going to answer it but it was Nick calling. He was already back at the apartment - waiting.

Jack started driving home, I started leaning over. We were the only car on the streets, and I went down on him. At one point he warned me there was a SUV in the lane next to us and they had a perfect view but I didn't care. I wanted to taste his cum. I wanted to make him explode.

The drive lasted only a few minutes, and I wanted to make him cum before we left his car but he made me stop when we pulled into his parking lot.

I wanted Nick to be waiting for us alone but of course Melissa was there. We all stopped in the kitchen or the bathroom then regrouped in the bedroom.

Jack asked me if I wanted to finish what I had started. He sat on the edge of the bed and unzipped his pants. I got my knees and went back to work, sucking on his cock. It was a little awkward with Melissa watching - I mean we've been friends since high school but we weren't close/close like I am with Jill.

But after a minute, Nick became the focus of her attention. They left us alone and went out the couch in the livingroom.

When Jack came it was huge, his hot cum filled my mouth. I felt spurts hitting the back of my throat and I had to work hard to swallow it all.

When he was done, I got some water from the kitchen. The kitchen is kind off of the living room so if it hadn't been so dark I could've seen what was going on. But I really didn't need to see, I could hear him pounding her, they're heavy breathing and her moaning. I was even more turned on.

Jack was already naked and already hard again when I made my way back into the bedroom. I may have been gone longer, listened a little too long. I took my clothes off and let them drop to the floor before I joined him on the bed.

I straddled him, feeling his cock against me. It took a little work with my hands, but then he was completely ready to go again. I sat on top of his cock and it easily slid into me. I rode him slowly, sliding up and down on him then going all the way up to where only his head was inside me.

I rode him for a while. Slowly at first, then going as fast I could until I couldn't go anymore. Then he got on top, we fucked missionary style. And he fucked me hard, quick and fast. He was fucking me more like Nick did. And yeah, I imagined he was Nick.

I'm not to flexible but he put my legs on his shoulders, allowing him to go deeper into me. He pounded me. It must have been a mix of him already have cum, and all the alcohol because it took a long time for him to cum.

We were both exhausted when he finally came, but I wasn't done. Nick had been watching and asked "if he could."

He took up right where Jack had left off, same position and everything. He was like a machine and at top speed. I asked him who's pussy was better. He moaned mine. Then I asked who was a better fuck and he told me I was.

We switched to doggy, him fucking me hard for a while.

But then we stopped, he didn't even have to ask. He put his cock deep into my ass, fucking me slowly, then quicker until it was him pounding my ass. I wish I could describe the sound better, but it was hot - the wet sound it makes when he's fucking my ass.

He slowed down, and I moved out of a doggy position to lying on my stomach. He was almost lying on top of me. He was slow for a few minutes, then there was a few hard thrusts before I felt him throbbing deep inside my ass. Once he was done cumming, he pulled out and laid next to me. We kissed then I fell asleep. I was exhausted and the sun was already starting to come up.

You know it was a good night when I'm getting home around 6:30. Right now, I need to climb into bed - I'm still feeling it a little and I've only had about an hour of sleep right now.