Anal Amy

Maybe it wasn't the right decision, but I went out with Ryan last night. Which, wouldn't have been too bad if I hadn't decided to see how much I can drink. It turns out I can drink a lot. I thought I would see if drinking a lot would help me get over Jill's Dad. I already knew from past experience it wasn't going to work. But I did have a lot of fun, maybe a little too much fun. I didn't do anything too wild. I acted a little silly. Maybe I flirted a little too much but that was it. I was in a rather out of control in control. And I think it did help relax me some. I can't believe how stuck on Jill's Dad I was/am.

And maybe I shouldn't have had Ryan drive me home, but I was in no condition to drive. He drove me to my driveway, but I told him I wasn't ready to go home yet. We ended up just parking on some side street. But what you think is going to happen, didn't. Oh, was I really horny but I behaved and he was a gentleman. We just talked for a while. I told him about Jill's Dad without telling him all the incriminating details like that he's my friend's dad or that he's a lot older than I am. And he told me about his exgirlfriend and admitted he's still stuck on her.

I started to sober, he was getting tired, I told him I didn't want to sleep alone. He offered his bed, even after I told him nothing was going to happen. And I did sleep in his bed, I slept in his arms and he stayed the perfect gentleman. He held me tight and it felt perfect.