Anal Amy

The bad news....So we made things official. Before I went out with Jill last night, I met up with her dad. We talked for only a few minutes. He apologized a lot, I really didn't say much. I didn't have much to say. I should've known better.

The good news...Had a lot of fun last night with Jill and a bunch of our other friends. We went to a couple of the clubs downtown. And I did meet a guy, and for a few minutes I was able to stop thinking about Jill's dad. Actually, I already knew the guy. Ryan and I go to the same school and I've noticed him a few times on campus and at some parties but last night was the first time we talked. We danced for a while and for the most part he behaved himself. Things did get a little hot, we were dancing close for a while and we did kiss but that was it.

I could've gone home with him. I've used sex before to get over guys but for some reason it didn't feel right. Maybe because I was still thinking about "him" every five minutes. Or maybe because I could see something more than a fling with Ryan. However, that's about what I had imagined with Jill's Dad.

I don't know life can never be simple. If I had met Ryan a few months ago, or even a few weeks ago things would've been different. Instead all I can think about is a man I can't have.