Friday, September 15, 2006
I should know better
So my new friend told me he had to tell me something. I knew what it was even before he told me. He has a girlfriend. I knew he was too perfect to be single. Too cute, too good in bed (even though he's just done oral so far I have a feeling he's a good lover).
I should've known it when he was so hesitant but what can I say.
But to make matters worse, even after he told me about her we fooled around some more. I've been the other girl before but most of the time it wasn't in a situation like this. He's been going out with her for three years. They're in love, maybe even getting married. But she's back home and he's not sure if he's ready to settle down.
I see this heading towards a friends with benefits thing. Which would work for me. Someone that could satisfy me without getting too involved with. No hurt feelings. No complaining when I'm too busy studying. Etc. Plus I don't want a relationship right now. They always end in me getting hurt.
And he's not the average. I'd use the word sensitive but that's has so many bad connotations(spelling?) with it. I mean he didn't have to tell me. Not saying he's an angel because he's cheating on his girlfriend but....I don't know. If his oral skills weren't so amazing I'd have a lot easier time deciding what to do.
After he told me, I told him I was going to leave because I need time to think. But I never made it out the door of his bedroom. Things were awkward but we were talking, at one point I leaned over and kissed him.
We made out for a while. At the time, I was thinking that maybe this fling could last for a while.
Again, he told me I didn't have to but it didn't stop me this time either. He laid back on his bed, then I unzipped his jeans. I took his cock out and stroked him for a short time. He was rock hard when I put him into my mouth.
It took a while to make him cum but with him it's not a chore like it can be with other guys. I'm not just going through he motions. I love feeling his cock sliding between my lips. And when I brought him to an orgasm he rewarded me with a huge load of cum. It sounds kind of cheesy but it really was a lot of cum.
He made it clear that it was my turn next but he took his time taking off my clothes. It was teasing me. And when I was finally naked he just finger fucked me for a while, which by itself felt amazing. Then he went down on me. Felt even better this time. But I couldn't cum. He felt so good but I couldn't reach it. I begged him to fuck me but he didn't.
He kept licking, sucking, flicking me with his tongue. Finger fucking me. He didn't want to stop but after a while I made him. Told him it wasn't his fault. He's unlike most guys - he was to communicate about things like that.
So I don't know. Friday night we're going to hang out again. Go drinking. It should be fun but next weekend he's going back home to visit his girlfriend. I swear I've already been through something like this before so I should know better.
I should've known it when he was so hesitant but what can I say.
But to make matters worse, even after he told me about her we fooled around some more. I've been the other girl before but most of the time it wasn't in a situation like this. He's been going out with her for three years. They're in love, maybe even getting married. But she's back home and he's not sure if he's ready to settle down.
I see this heading towards a friends with benefits thing. Which would work for me. Someone that could satisfy me without getting too involved with. No hurt feelings. No complaining when I'm too busy studying. Etc. Plus I don't want a relationship right now. They always end in me getting hurt.
And he's not the average. I'd use the word sensitive but that's has so many bad connotations(spelling?) with it. I mean he didn't have to tell me. Not saying he's an angel because he's cheating on his girlfriend but....I don't know. If his oral skills weren't so amazing I'd have a lot easier time deciding what to do.
After he told me, I told him I was going to leave because I need time to think. But I never made it out the door of his bedroom. Things were awkward but we were talking, at one point I leaned over and kissed him.
We made out for a while. At the time, I was thinking that maybe this fling could last for a while.
Again, he told me I didn't have to but it didn't stop me this time either. He laid back on his bed, then I unzipped his jeans. I took his cock out and stroked him for a short time. He was rock hard when I put him into my mouth.
It took a while to make him cum but with him it's not a chore like it can be with other guys. I'm not just going through he motions. I love feeling his cock sliding between my lips. And when I brought him to an orgasm he rewarded me with a huge load of cum. It sounds kind of cheesy but it really was a lot of cum.
He made it clear that it was my turn next but he took his time taking off my clothes. It was teasing me. And when I was finally naked he just finger fucked me for a while, which by itself felt amazing. Then he went down on me. Felt even better this time. But I couldn't cum. He felt so good but I couldn't reach it. I begged him to fuck me but he didn't.
He kept licking, sucking, flicking me with his tongue. Finger fucking me. He didn't want to stop but after a while I made him. Told him it wasn't his fault. He's unlike most guys - he was to communicate about things like that.
So I don't know. Friday night we're going to hang out again. Go drinking. It should be fun but next weekend he's going back home to visit his girlfriend. I swear I've already been through something like this before so I should know better.
posted by Amy at 12:29 AM
7 Comments:
Just remember that your into this for a good time, nothing else. It sucks that he has a girlfriend, but now its up to you to not become emotionally attached (if thats possible after already being intimate). As for the oral skills, don't give him to much credit or you might make his head swell....no pun intended. When it comes to oral I don't understand why women never communicate the fact of what they want exactly done to them, sexual encounters are for both peoples enjoyment, so say what you want and if its not happening teach your partner by showing him exactly how you like it. I'm not saying be a rude dictator but guide him to the area's that make you melt.
All I can say is: "What does your gut tell you?" Frequently (and sometimes unfortunately), your gut is right. Deep inside, if you don't feel that it's right, then you should cut it off quickly. If not, then enjoy yourself, but keep your "head above the water."
I bet his damn girlfriend doesn't suck him off like you do. I bet his damn girlfriend doesn't do anal. He's YOURS for the taking!
Ride it hard...or perhaps get his girlfriend involved?
Hey, I know how it is having great sex with someone you can't have anything real with unless things change. You just have to play it slow and get what you can get. I've been there before and if you push too much you won't get it but when you're not pushing it just happens and wow yo...wow. Good luck!
It seems he's not fully satisfied with his main squeeze. And nos-strings sex is a-OK, so long as you don't forget that. Think he could be a find? You could ask for exclusivity, but he's feelin' guilty about seeing you, so what' s he made of?
You're too young to get "serious." So have fun and be careful. And take care of your heart, by not confusing passion with a relationship.
Hey! It's been a while, huh...
I don't know what my opinion is about the whole girlfriend-thing with your new lover... I don't think there is anything especially wrong about him cheating with you, as long as he's not married. I actually liked my math professor for the longest time and I flirt with him all the time but nothing ever happens. He has a girlfriend but I always catch him looking at me and being all smiley and happy whenever he sees me...I always wondered how to attract taken men, however bad that might sound. Did you make the first move? Was he kind of uncertain? How did you guys first kiss? I'm so curious...
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